Freaking Out.

I'm making you go away. Because of little things. Stupid things.
I'm losing you. And it's my fault.
You're always so good to me. Always sweet. Always kind. But loving me is something that I never seem to find. You're here. And I'm here. Why things between us can't just be OK? What else I need to make you mine? Because I want you. In my heart you already hang. Now I need to get into yours. But I can't find the key. You gave me, and I lost it. How am I supossed to find them if I have no eyes? If my heart is the only one in charge inside of me? Come on. Give me a chance. Just one. Kiss me. Open your heart. I can make you happy. I can make you mine.

...so kiss me.

Kiss me. And I'll show you is worth it. Kiss me. I can make you smile. You're blind now. But if you just give me a simple kiss, I could make you see is me you wanna be with. I could make you realize that I was here all this time. And you didn't notice. Kiss me. And I will make you want more. And more. And more. Kiss me. Just kiss me. And our lives will change foverer. If you just give me a kiss. So kiss me.
Kiss me here. Kiss me now. Kiss me on the table, under the rain. Kiss me on the beach. Kiss me in the dark of a crazy party. Kiss me when I'm scared. Kiss me when I'm happy. Kiss me when nobody's looking. Kiss me on the moonlight. Kiss me like that's a fight. Kiss me like you love me. Kiss me whenever you want to kiss. Kiss me after a kiss. Kiss me like you hate me. Kiss me like a pervert. Kiss me tomorow. Kiss me to say hi. To say goodbye. Kiss me when you're feeling down. Kiss me when you feel like kissing. Kiss my neck. My body. My mouth. My soul. Kiss me. Kiss me now. Kiss me today, tomorow, foverer, somehow.

Why, hun?

Why do I love you? If that's the way you make me feel. You're my fuel. You give me energy. But one that I ended to become addicted in. You're kind of a drug. You gave me everything. And now you don't let me use it anymore. I was killed. And I still up. For my own sadnees, I still can open my eyes. And see you. Druging other people. With my drug. I just wanna die. So kill me. The way is supossed to be. I wanna die with overdose. So kill me. Because I wanna die. So I can say goodbye. Goodbye.

Amor

Todos sabem a definição
decorada do dicionário
Substantivo abstrato
sentimento do coração...

Para mim é complexo...demasiado.
Meu cêrebro sabe o que é
Mas meu coração é tão burro e desastrado
E infelizmente, também é o mais rápido.

Não sei o que devo fazer
Não sei se devo parar e esquecer
Não sei para onde devo ir
Talvez sentar aqui e desistir

Desistir do amor?
Talvez eu consiga
Mas talvez eu não queira.
Talvez eu possa aguentar essa dor.

Dizem que eu não achei o certo ainda
Não sei se ele não existe, ou se só estamos separados.
Talvez eu deva esquecer isso por um tempo
E matar minha sede com os errados.
-14.10.09

Fantasy Remote

This is the moment that I live for.
Here I am, stoping my feet of going where they wanna go.
For a second I wish my body could move without asking me if that's ok.
I wish the time could delete bad thoughts in my mind.
I wish I lived in New York. Where the cure is in the city lights.
Where I feel like I can do anything. Because I can.
For a second I look at you and I'm going to kiss you.
One more second and maybe that's not such a good idea.
I scream my wishes inside my head. No one listens. Not even me.
I'm surrounded by myself. I'm too much to live with.
I wish I could be free. And do whatever I wanna do.
That would be so great. So real. So new.
Walking down the stears.
Don't know where I'm getting at.
have nowhere else to go.
Just know I'm going too fast
Here I am. Here goes nothing.
Too much going on.
Inside of me.
Nothing outside. Nothing real.
You're here with me.
And do I wanna be with you.
Moouth looked by insecurity
The key is looked inside my heart.
I'm giving it. Getting it back.
My heart is looked inside fantasy.
Fantasy does not exist.
hm.

You're here...Are you?

You're touching me. And then you're kissing her.
You're acting like I'm your best friend. And then I don't exist.
You're here. And then you're not.
You're important to me. But you're leaving.
You're here now. Why can't I enjoy that?
You're everything that I dreamed about. Why aren't you perfect for me?
You're playing with my hair and you told me I'm beatiful.
You're playing your guitar. And you said you want me to be around.
You're talking on the phone. And looking at me in the same time.
You're talking with everyone about a movie you saw. But your eyes are mine.
You're playing ping pong. And when you win a point. I win a smile.
You're putting your hand in my shaking legs. I'm tense. You're worried.
You're asking me what's wrong. And you got mad when I said nothing.
Youre making me jelously because your pizza came first.
You're making me blush. And then you're with her.
You're stealing my heart. And then hers.
You're daring me to do somethings. Which would please you.
You're here. And then you're not.
You're...Where are you?